Continue to be kind to me wind, as whispers of the future float from your ribbons.
Please stay with me love as my life warps itself around you.
Don’t leave me fulfillment, and let the reasons for my being feel it too.
Hold me tightly faith, and keep my world steady.
For another year, beat with me life, let me breathe in your energies.
Walk beside me strength, and keep my feet on the ground.
She danced on the ray of sunlight
That same one that streamed through the ocean
She threw her head back
And slid onto the ice below
Just thick enough to hold her weight
She slashed at the fog that enveloped her
And clung to the light she had left
While spiders broke against her moving feet
And the water claimed her wooden body
As she let go
It started at the ends of my fingers
And worked its was up my arms
It felt its way down my spine
And clawed itself around my waist
It found a vein to follow
All the way down to my toes
And then spun itself around my neck
Before suddenly opening my eyes
You would never have known
But it consumed me
My breath hitched
Then caught
On the sparkle in your eyes
And crinkle in your skin
As fairytales flittered behind your head
And running to you seemed like the next step
My breath stayed stuck
As your voice filled my ears
And my skin raised goosebumps to your touch
You took my breath away
Your perfection surrounded me in a glow
As your fingers made a space between mine
And your smile tugged at the corners of my heart
Your arms came around my figure
And I let my head rest over the beating in your chest
As I breathed in forever
With you
She waited for the full force to slam her chest against the back wall, before taking a deep breath.
She looked for the sun going down to disguise her tears, before tasting salt.
She agonized over the seconds spent waisted in her mind, before drowning a few more in a bottle.
She closed her eyes before the nightmares washed away any thought of a dream.
And she woke with no senses, that could change a wrong to right.
I haven’t done a personal for a while, and I’m feeling the need. So here goes.
Recently, I started a new job. I got engaged, I asked my best friends to be my bridesmaids, I moved out, I grew up.
My job tugs at my heartstrings and leaves me in tears some days, but I adore it. I love being able to help out families back together, and I love that I have such a fantastic team to work with. If I didn’t have them I would crumble.
My partner is the most incredible person alive. He smiles when I walk in the room, he flicked a light on my soul and I have no doubts that he is my everything. I had people tell me I was too young to get married, and to that, I told them that there is not way you can put an age on when you fall irrevocably in love with a person, so much that it shifts who you are as a person to fit a piece of them in. It’s incredible.
My beautiful friends, we’ve all grown up, some have children, others moved away. My best friends are incredible, and I can’t wait to share with them, another earth shattering moment in my life. But I’m constantly afraid that as we grow older, there will be less and less contact until we grow apart. I love them so dearly, and have to remind myself that when there is life getting in the way, it needs to be pushed aside for a moment to make room for the stars in your life. These people are my stars.
I moved out and grew up. In doing so, I missed my family so much that a small hole remains in me, because no matter what, my family have been my everything. My gorgeous mum who has been tremendous through my life, and my amazing brother and sister who shine through all the clouds. I’m learning to balance the beautiful people I have been blessed with, but I’m not doing very well, I still haven’t seen my best friends apartment in melbourne. I also stopped exercising hardcore, because life took over, I’m struggling to look in the mirror, or wear anything remotely figure hugging. As an individual who has severe body image issues, this is in the back of my mind, but I’m not sure how to motivate myself when I’m so emotionally drained, I can’t move at times.
Anyway. That’s what’s going through my head at the moment, maybe I needed to do a personal to cure my writers block!!
The autumn leaves drifted over my feet
While I swayed to the icy breeze
That tickled the back of my neck
And thought of the warmth of the wood fire
Waiting in your heart
The dreams I would find in your arms
My eyes misted
As the colour changed to burnt orange around me
And the seasons whispered of a chill
That wouldn’t leave
Let me catch the breath
That fluttered from my chest
At the gasp leaving me
Just the time
One left you
Let me mould it into a smile
And change the response I gifted
To regain the expression
That dropped from you
She wrote with blood
And sung with another’s hearts
As the desiccated world
Curled up in her hand
For the night
